Tamoxifen! Damn you!
I hate these hot flashes. I get them every hour or two at night--just enough to insure I never, ever feel rested. I wake up....I realize a hot flash is beginning. I push off every cover. I sleep. I wake again twenty minutes later....I'm cold. Lather, rinse, repeat. Six times the other night.
I can't believe I'm looking at years of this garbage. Please God tell me it will even out at some point.
And we won't speak of the mood swings...when I'm under stress (which seems to be about 90% of the time) I alternate between just purely pissed off at the world or despondent.
My, this is so much fun.
Happy birthday to me this week...this year has sucked. I sure hope the next one is less dramatic!
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Tamoxifen......ICK.
I have now taken 10 tamoxifen pills...that stuff BETTER stop more cancer, because I'm not impressed with the side effects.
My mood swings have been EPIC...
My head hurts all or part of every day...
I am getting more and more hot flashes especially at night--I wake up and kick off covers or pull on covers a dozen times a night....
My mouth has this horrible taste...metallic...rancid...blah....
Oh goody...I get to take this stuff for five years. I sure hope the first month or two is the worst.
I don't recommend breast cancer as a hobby.
My mood swings have been EPIC...
My head hurts all or part of every day...
I am getting more and more hot flashes especially at night--I wake up and kick off covers or pull on covers a dozen times a night....
My mouth has this horrible taste...metallic...rancid...blah....
Oh goody...I get to take this stuff for five years. I sure hope the first month or two is the worst.
I don't recommend breast cancer as a hobby.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
October 1...Begin Next Phase!
Today I start to take the anti-cancer drug tamoxifen for five years....I guess my hormones are in for a wake-up call (a go-to-sleep call?).
I also have several doctors debating whether tamoxifen alone is enough....
...or whether I should take a shot every month to squash my ovaries (and kill my life as a somewhat happy productive person, by some accounts!)....
...or whether I should just have another lovely surgery to rip out my lady parts altogether! Get it all over with quickly (?) and take away the estrogen production AND the risk of tamoxifen giving me endometrial cancer.
Decisions...decisions...this girl-stuff is so FUN. What will it be...estrogen naps, ovary comas, or slash and burn?
For now, it's tamoxifen and PUNT! Tomorrow is another day.
I also have several doctors debating whether tamoxifen alone is enough....
...or whether I should take a shot every month to squash my ovaries (and kill my life as a somewhat happy productive person, by some accounts!)....
...or whether I should just have another lovely surgery to rip out my lady parts altogether! Get it all over with quickly (?) and take away the estrogen production AND the risk of tamoxifen giving me endometrial cancer.
Decisions...decisions...this girl-stuff is so FUN. What will it be...estrogen naps, ovary comas, or slash and burn?
For now, it's tamoxifen and PUNT! Tomorrow is another day.
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